The Great Expectation

I was reading my Bible tonight, when this passage struck me.  Mark 7: 24-30 really shocks me.  I know that demons and even satan MUST flee when  the name of Jesus is declared, but with this passage God's name isn't said. 

Why did the demon leave?  Of course!  Jesus has enough faith to expect the demons should flee, and flee they did.  It's so amazing when you think about it.  You don't have to utter God's name to see healing, and demons cast out.  It sure helps though.

I just think it's really neat how demons listen to our expectations.  It takes a ton of faith, that I frankly don't have yet.  I would love to have this faith, so God please grant me this faith. 

Another thing that I have been wrestling with lately is the whole idea of furthering the Kingdom.  What exactly is the Kingdom?  It's wherever God's will is being carried out.  It may not seem like it but running around with other Christians is furthering the Kingdom.

How?  We are having fellowship, it's really cool how the most random things are spreading God's will.  I wish I knew more about God's will... I guess that's where I should practice my discernment more.

Revenge I Seek...

I don't really have a premise for this post, I guess I just need to vent a bit.

^"1 How long, LORD? Will you forget me forever?
   How long will you hide your face from me?
² How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
   and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
   How long will my enemy triumph over me?
 ³ Look on me and answer, LORD my God.
   Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,
⁴ and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
   and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
 ⁵ But I trust in your unfailing love;
   my heart rejoices in your salvation.
⁶ I will sing the LORD’s praise,
   for he has been good to me."
 -Psalm 13

This was the first Psalm that I opened up to.  It's really cool because it's short sweet and to the point.  There are Psalms that go on for way longer and say the exact same thing.  I think that's pretty nifty how the Psalmist just sums it all up here.

All of that out of the way, God has been really good to me lately.  Which is totally awesome because I know that I have been having problems with believing that God loves me. 

Some good news, You Are Loved has decided to become a ministry, which means that we will be telling people about God as well as telling them they shouldn't be self destructive.  That said, I think it's really important for people to know that they are indeed loved.
 

This is Our Worship, Goreship

Worship is a very odd thing, as it doesn't really matter what your actions are, it matters what your intent is.  That said, I have been dabbling with the occult.  Not really big news to most people if you really think about it.  I have been playing with the Spiritual fire, demons.

If you have any sense heed my words: DON'T DO IT!

It's the one of the most stupidest and hurtful things you can do.  I don't suggest it to anyone.  By my entertaining demons I have been worshiping satan and thus I have been messing around with well, the most effed up entity ever. 

That said, I would like to proclaim that God has bigger, better plans for me.  I can't wait to start kicking the demons out of my life.  I can't wait to start caring about everything again.

So, yes, I am starting to worship God fully again.  That means doing work.  It's gonna suck, but it's gonna be freaking awesome!  I am going to be asking for patience to endure all the crap satan will throw at me, and the wisdom to know what's right to do.  Lastly I need to ask for the conviction to do those hard things.

I would like to end this by saying the title is from a song called "Silence the Oppressors" by Impending Doom.  "Goreship" is the worship of God.

Another Poem

-Hopeless Abandon-

Screaming I cry Your name

I can't live move breath

Without You holding me

I've moved away in rebellion

Only to fall on my face again

Screaming I cry Your name

A perfect portrait

Now stained with innocent blood

Impossibly to clean

Ruined memoires

Screaming I cry Your name

Until my lungs give way

 

I just wrote that poem.  It's pretty much my way of saying so many different things all wrapped into one giant thing.  

First and foremost, it's my way of saying "I'm lost, and I don't know where to go, so I cry out to God."  The lines about not being able to live and such are pretty much me just saying "I can't function without God, and I have been trying to."

Let me say from experience, it sucks, to be without God.

The next stanza is pretty much just me complaining about some stuff gone wrong in my life.