Oh God, Oh God, Oh God

"Do not be far from me,
for trouble is near
and there is no one to help."
Psalm 22:11

I would use the rest of Psalm 22, but that would be 31 verses of pure depression. Which, explains why it is one of my favorite Psalms. I can relate.

Most of the time I feel like a worm and not a man; it is also pretty common for me to feel like God has just walked out on me. Of course He hasn't but that's where this verse comes in.

I really need to learn to start trusting people including God, my family, and my girlfriend. God, put people in my life to tell me to change how I live. The nagging has gotten really annoying.

I am the kind of person who needs to be shown how to do something. I can't be told "do better in school" and then left with that. Do better how? Oh yeah, work harder... I think I'm working as hard as I can under the current situation.

It feels a lot like the people around me who are trying to help are actually harming. They nag and nag which adds pressure and stress to me. I can't function with at least four people breathing down my back telling me what to do...

God, please hear my cry for help of "Oh God, Oh God, Oh God" Amen

The Not so Pretty Side of Things

"Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God."
Romans 8:5-8

What exactly is a desire? I think of a desire as more than a simple want. Desires are more of a driving force. If I were to desire something, I would think about it and try to get it.

When you focus on and desire things of the flesh such as money, sex, or whatever you are putting something before God. I imagine life as not one, not two, but three burners. Like the burners on a stove. The front one is the stuff that is on your mind the most. The back burner is the stuff that is least important to you. The middle burner is, well, neutral.

When you have God's desires on your heart you are living in the Spirit. It is really cool to be living in the Spirit. God is also happier with you when your heart reflects His.

Why do we sin? We sin because it looks, feels, tastes, and sounds good. In actuality it kills us. Sin kills us in every way shape and form.

Why don't we do the stuff God wants us to do? God's way is the hard way. It looks, feels, tastes, and sounds hard, but from what I have found through personal experiences is that it may seem difficult but really it is the most rewarding in the long run.

For example, I helped put in a volleyball court at the school I used to go to. I can still talk about it and feel good about doing it. Sure, it was hard labor, but I still feel good about it.