Oh God, Oh God, Oh God

"Do not be far from me,
for trouble is near
and there is no one to help."
Psalm 22:11

I would use the rest of Psalm 22, but that would be 31 verses of pure depression. Which, explains why it is one of my favorite Psalms. I can relate.

Most of the time I feel like a worm and not a man; it is also pretty common for me to feel like God has just walked out on me. Of course He hasn't but that's where this verse comes in.

I really need to learn to start trusting people including God, my family, and my girlfriend. God, put people in my life to tell me to change how I live. The nagging has gotten really annoying.

I am the kind of person who needs to be shown how to do something. I can't be told "do better in school" and then left with that. Do better how? Oh yeah, work harder... I think I'm working as hard as I can under the current situation.

It feels a lot like the people around me who are trying to help are actually harming. They nag and nag which adds pressure and stress to me. I can't function with at least four people breathing down my back telling me what to do...

God, please hear my cry for help of "Oh God, Oh God, Oh God" Amen